What God Has Given Me.

    I try not to question Gods plan for me and why he has has given me ADHD. But lately I have been struggling. A lot. I don't know what to do. I have been taking medicine for about two years now. And its helped but not as much as I would hope it would. And just adding more and more doses isn't really an option. I can only take so much because of how much I weigh. More now than ever I have just been praying to God asking him PLEASE help me to focus in school/golf. And to help me know that you gave this to me for a reason. 
    
I have failed all my classes except for two. Its not that I don't study, or that I don't turn in my work ect. I DO! I work my heart out. And I always just get disappointed. And I can't take it anymore. 
   
Well I talked to a mentor of mine and she told me that God doesn't give us bad stuff. But He allows thing in out lives that will refine us and draw us closer to him. She gave me one of my favorite Bible verses I use when I'm playing golf. its Phil. 4:13 "I can do all things through christ who strengthens me." She told me that things that are hard will grow us more like him, but it isn't easy.
    
This weekend I have been trying to keep this prospective and hopefully this week I can have this mind set of I can do all things through Christ, and that I can do this. Its hard to see the outcome and see the future of what will happen over the next month but even though I can't see it now God can. And all I have to do is trust in him.


Maddy.